The release date for my debut WHERE THE STAIRCASE ENDS got moved up to April 14, which means that my book baby will be out in the world in FIVE WEEKS from tomorrow.
*insert screams here*
Not only that, but it's now available for pre-order on all major outlets, the blog tour sign up went out (link below if you're interested), requests for interviews and guest posts have started rolling in, and the invites for my release party went out yesterday.
Everything I worked so hard for these last few years is finally coming together. And I am terrified.
Yes, you heard me correctly. I'm terrified. Maybe I shouldn't admit that out loud, but it's the honest truth. I'm scared that no one is going to buy my novel, or that people will buy it and hate it. I'm terrified of that inevitable one-star review, or that no one will care enough to write a review at all.
Don't get me wrong -- I am beyond excited that this dream of mine is finally going to become a reality. But I'm only human, and putting myself and the characters I created out into the world is scary.
I've been able to keep my fears on the back burner up until now, primarily because the release date always seemed so far away. And while it only got moved up by a few weeks, it still moved up, and something about that action woke the beast of self-doubt inside of me.
So what do you do? How do you quiet that loud and often obnoxious voice of negativity? I'm still trying to figure it out, but the best advice I've gotten from other writers is the same advice I was given when I was tromping through the query trenches: write the next book.
So that's what I am going to do. On April 14, I will take some time out with friends to celebrate the fact that my book is out in the world. And then I'm going to sit back down in front of my computer and finish my latest project. After all, I starting writing because I had a story to tell, not because I had a book to sell. And as long as I stay true to that, I suppose I can never go wrong.
So for all of you out there wading through the fear and self doubt that comes with writing -- whether you're in the query trenches, submission trenches, or navigating the published waters -- keep writing, and remember why you started writing in the first place. Because you have a story to tell.
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